This is my first story and proper post on this forum, before i always used this site to post basic comments but never anything about me, and what follows is quite a dark tale i wish to share with people anonymously as i think it may help with my condition.
I don't know if you lot know of this condition, but its a very obsessive problem. I thought I would share it with this tight community here, I am fairly embarrassed by this. It all started when the juices started flowing around puberty sort of time, and I would see my brothers FHM laying around and I would flick through them, checking out the ladies, articles and it was kinda cool (all i needed was a model picture showing her legs, bum or feet (preferably in heels) and i would be perfectly satisfied.
Then it came to sky TV freeviews and the softcore pornography that would be on channel 5 at times, and blam, that enough for my full satisfaction, and the FHM was made redundant.
THEN, an older family friend of mine had pornoraphy magazines....surely not? but yes, it was delightful, I would flick through these and learn about the female form, in all its naked/spread glory, and again, all it would take is feet, legs or ass on show, with a little bit of genitalia, and i would be full satisfied.
THEN, I got regular use of the internet, and at that age, I just couldn't stop exploring my genitalia, always with something in front of me to help,and over time it the images I would look at were getting more and more explicit, for me to reach my full satisfaction.
Sorry this is probably boring you by now, but it gets worse. A few years go by, I am around 18 or so, and I am pretty much constantly downloading pornography. (of all types, and i think it was here i started looking at things that i was curious about rather than attracted to). I was certainly already on this forum and in to feet, fully. I was now looking at pretty much every type of porn I could find, and was noticing I rejected the softer images and satisfied myself to the stronger stuff. (all of this whilst i had a gf, i would say serious, but it was youngsters pretending and thinking it was serious (my first ever gf), of which my current relationship proves this notion.))
Blam! a few more years, and i am 20, now i really am looking at it all, from gay porn on occasion, regularly shemales, and a handful of times, dare i say it, child pornography. (when i first looked at the latter mentioned here, it was a genuine mistake, someone on one of these p2p file sharing programs had intentionally renamed the files to something far less harmful). I got the reaction from seeing it, much like any right minded person here would, disgusted, shocked and closed it instantly. But, a small part of me got an adrenaline rush from seeing it, and it was a HUGE rush. I knew i shouldn't be looking at it, and so i reopened it once i got past the initial shock of what i had seen.
Afterwards I felt unbelievably guilty and sick, and deleted the p2p program, all the downloads, and went about cleaning my computer of all traces of this sickening "session". Months and months go by and this shock is still with me, slowing down my craving for harder and harder porn, so i stuck to the more basic pornography, and somehow i reverted to using more erotic and softcore imges to fully satisfy myself, somehow this shock had put me back to being more sensitive to porn, like when i first started looking at FHM.
A couple of years go by and i slowly build this tolerance up again, and a couple of times even reinstalled this p2p program, to stumble upon another "mistake". I even got the stage of typing in things related to what i had seen before, which again, as i did so caused this huge adrenaline reaction. I seemed to like this feeling, afterwards i loathed myself and felt guilty (as anyone would), but once that subsided, hours, days, weeks, months or even years later, i would find myself building up this tolerance again.
I am ashamed to admit it, but, i do have a problem with pornography, I am by no means a pedophile, gay OR in to transexuals, but the adrenaline rush i got over the years IS attractive.
Pleasuring yourself to things that in reality disgust you because you are high on adrenaline and dopamine is very confusing after the experience has gone. This in conjunction with the fact that i have got OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) is very hard indeed, and in fact Pornography Addiction is very much an obsessive, and compulsive habit. One of my obsessions (prior to all of this confused adrenaline seeking behaviour ) was in fact being terrified of being a pedophile. Another was being terrified of being gay, and so on it goes. This is possibly why i ended up feeding my curiousity. Little did i realise at the time feeding my obsessions on such topics as well as getting that hit of adrenaline and worry, which for some reason i see to crave.
This account of my behavior makes me come across as some sick deprived lost soul, in which i really am not. I have a condition in which is hard enough as it is, the internet unwittingly made it harder for me with the availability of pornography, and tolerance is definitely something i implore you all to watch closely.
Sickeningly a lot of the worlds most profilic rapists and mass murderers were in fact addicted to pornography.
This is probably the first time i have ever been quite so brutally honest about this condition so please don't shoot me down. Hate me if you will, but please understand i am sharing this number one, to get something off my chest and number 2, to help you all keep your tolerance and addiction levels under wraps.
I am now 22, and am hardcore porn free (pretty much since i got with my current Gf, 8 months ago), i occasionally look at feet pictures on here *under the contribution section), but i get that guilty feeling (as i am now in a very committed loving relationship). Also, i find i REALLY want to carry on with my pleasure seeking once i see feet, so i think i may try and keep my logging on to here down to a bare minimum too. This isn't a farewell as such, but if i do disappear from this site its all for a valid reason, and i hope you can all wish me luck in my "clean" future.
Pornography addiction can cause serious knock on effects, and one of which is affecting your sexual relationships as you are completely desensitized to it all. I really do hope you look at this article at an educational viewpoint.
Thanks for your time, below is an article on my conditions (people without OCD diagnosed can still get seriously addicted to pornography). Also below is a test to see where you stand, when it comes to addiction.
This was indeed a dark tale, I think it takes a lot to admit to the kind of things you did. The whole desensitized thing and other obvious parts of the story are pretty worrying, but you've explained your actions and thoughts eloquently in my opinion and it's good to see you've overcome your problems.
If staying away from porn and subsequently this forum will help you stay "clean" (by your own standards), then best of luck to you my friend.
Posted by footjoyboy (Member # 26478) on :
Good luck, Web Cruiser !!
_fjb_ Posted by A&F_FootDude_05 (Member # 2999) on :
I fit three of those descriptors. I feel I am balancing well on the line but it was great to see that as perhaps a wake-up call
This might sound ironic, but pornography fuels me - I have attained straight A's for the first time in my life this past winter semester and have become an outstanding employee who has been deemed 'employee of the month' and both have come about despite my addiction to porn worsening to an all-time level this year. I have found that putting more time into porn has allowed me to put more time into school and make me a better employee..perhaps that may explain why pornography addiction is not a psychological disorder - (according to Wikipedia.
Posted by Sinnister (Member # 2394) on :
Sorry to sound like a jerk but the vast majority of people who watch, download and whack it to porn don't go as far as you went. So if you're here to preach about the "horrors of porn" save it. My psychology degree tells me you have to be pre-conditioned to do what you did. Search yourself and your history. You'll come it.
Posted by Web Cruiser (Member # 1019) on :
I am not preaching so please do not tell me to "save it " when I am not doing that
Posted by octoberbaseball (Member # 20977) on :
Good luck, stay safe, and all the best. I'm happy to hear you're cleaning up and that you are happy with a girlfriend. Hopefully she can be supportive. I'm actually single and I'm wondering if I was with a significant other that I could accomplish more. You just have to think of consequences. Before you act think what can happen if go through this.
Posted by Keyfeet (Member # 27313) on :
dude, you are a pedophile. any adult who gets hot over looking at children, needs serius help. go to fuckin rehab
Posted by Toetapper (Member # 6473) on :
Please put me in the "Skeptic" column.
I can be on the "wordy" side and could go off on a rather lengthy diatribe here but I believe that I can do this with some brevity:
First, back in the "Old West" (a tradition that goes much farther back), a criminal was afforded an opportunity to discuss his transgressions and warn the audience - there to see him "swing" - of all the snares and traps that lay before them. Then he was hanged. Web Cruiser's sermon has all the earmarks of such a speech. His intent, I think, is to divorce himself from all things that he finds sexually stimulating.
Web Cruiser, you are correct, given what you admitted, that you do have a problem. Some of what you said smacks of a 12-Step-Program. These aren't bad things but are not always helpful. A competent therapist would be a good supplement for you. If they go the route of, "Well it's simply a sex-addiction problem..." Yada, yada, yada. Find new help, they are throwing you into a category without actually hearing what you are telling them.
I am not here to condemn nor defend but I challenge those here to re-read what Web Cruiser has written. (The weight of my Psych degree is upon me as well, Sinnister.) This is not sex-addiction. My guess is that Web Cruiser is more stimulated by the fact that something is "Forbidden" than by the subject matter itself; in this case, the subject matter is sexual in nature. He could have been in a family of Firefighters and the pack of matches started him on his way. He might have been in some obscure South Pacific jungle where fucking a monkey skull was the pinnacle of abomination. He probably wouldn't have had his way with a monkey-skull but would have waited to watch someone who did.
Definitely not a pedophile but a willing witness...long after the fact.
Crap! I was still wordy!
Posted by Web Cruiser (Member # 1019) on :
I am no pedophile as i never relieved myself to these images.
Thank you toetapper, i have seen psychologists about this, and what they have said is more in line with the words you wrote.
Footgirl, realise i am not saying OCD is the cause, as it is possible for similar actions with or without OCD. You can call me all the names under the sun, the fact is, i am a 22 year old with great career prospects, and in fact know wholeheartedly just how sick the odd occasion was when i stumbled upon illegal pornography. In my life i have probably seen it 3 maybe 4 times. sure, 3 or 4 times too many, i at no point in time was "getting hot" to it, however, i have done with other catagories of pornography mentioned earlier, namely shemales.
I was on my adrenaline/dopamine rush whilst i came across these images, the images in fact still haunt me to this day, i at no point in time enjoyed this phase of my life. It was confusing, addictive, esteem destroying, and most importantly EXTREMELY huge source of self-loathing and anxiety. As i have suffered from anxiety attacks for many years now, since stopping this behavior I am not as anxious as a person, my anxiety attacks are pretty much non existent, and my obsessional thoughts are in fact relatively controllable now. This behavior was a never ending pool of anxiety, and according to many psychologists i have seen, "you are addicted to negative emotions". Many people feel depressed and do nothing to help themselves, in fact listen to music to make them feel worse, think of things to make them cry more etc etc. I am very much like that, in that i am a human being, and we all have those deep rooted behaviors. However mine is extreme, and just happens to have something illegal and taboo thrown in there. I understand why you would want to call me anything under the sun, and burn me at the stake, but, dare i say it, i am no different to any of you, i just happened to have been addicted to an extreme negative emotion, and i found the "best" source for that. (when i say best, i mean it would cause the optimum amount of problems, i.e. the worst thing i could do to get the "desired" reaction.
I was an emotional self-harmer, instead of physically injuring myself (of which millions upon millions do) i got the same relief with emotional harm. (according to my therapist).
Posted by ozboy (Member # 518) on :
I give web cruiser the credit for getting this off his chest and for being honest and open !!
I am touched though by sinnister and toetapper's remarks. I think in their wisdom and experience they are onto something.
One thing is for sure web cruiser you are no dummy, you seem like a very intelligent person. I think having a gf for you is crucial in maintaining self control, focusing your energies on positive things and diverting your attention from some of the rubbish you've been exposed to in all that hard core shit.
Posted by stephm_ff (Member # 27001) on :
quote:Originally posted by footgirl0226: You know, the question that is raised all the time on this site is "Why dont more women post and comment and stick around on this site?"
Let me say I can lay money its because of comments like these. Then others commending someone for being open and honest to having an attraction and desire to look at kid porn. Give me a break.
Well lets just pray one of your gf's dont have a child or something cause clearly even though you know things are wrong - you are compelled to still go forward. But when you come back a yr from now and tell that scenerio, I am sure you will still have others that commend you on your excellence of honesty!
footgirl, i think you are completely justified with your reactions but lets be real, i don't think anyone who comments here on Wu's ever has or ever will condone pedophilia or any sort of association with child porn.
Even though we post on here alot, essentially the forum is still anonymous so i think that's why not everyone is as outraged as you are, because it's not like one of their friends (who they've met and know their first name) has come out and admitted this type of behaviour. I think any kind of 'congratulations' being shown here is the kind saying 'well done for NOT going any further down that road', i don't think anyone's hailing the fact that this guy admitted he wanted to look at child porn. Can you really imagine someone coming on here and admitting that they love child porn or that they've done something with a child and people being 'understanding'? They'd get torn apart.
Just my thoughts on the topic, I'd be interested to hear what some of the mods have to say about this even being on Wu's.
Posted by Ben Del Amitri (Member # 2724) on :
Having read this individual's post thoroughly, I'd have to agree with footgirl0226. I think he's masking his real point ... his predilection for child porn and pedophilia, by trying to "lead up" to it with less outragious "addictions", as he calls them.
I also query WTF this has to do with FEET, and why this poster sees fit to wax philosophically on the "horrors" of "porn addiction" and the "accidental stumblings" of child porn and online "mistakes" in a FOOT FORUM.
Further, I reject the premise that you can draw a line (however circuitous or "accidental" it may be) from FHM magazines to child porn. Pretty much like saying "my children started on bayer aspirin and it lead them to "accidentally" discovering heroin .. which they HATED ... but used anyway ... and BOY are they sorry!
If this poster honestly seeks to find help and treatment for his "porn addiction" - such as FHM magazine, tv freeviews, softcore porn, shemales or whatever, I would encourage him to do so, but without lauding him for his efforts.
As to his predilection for child porn, there is one excellent cure I can whole-heartedly recommend for that: go shoot yourself in the fu..king head! He can blame it on "adrenaline" or "dopamine" or whatever he wants. How about doing it in a more suitable forum and not dragging it into the foot world?
[ August 13, 2008, 12:11 AM: Message edited by: Ben Del Amitri ]
Posted by Toetapper (Member # 6473) on :
You make some very good points, Ben.
Some months ago I took a someone to task here for one of his posts; though I received a number of PM's applauding what I had to say, I felt somewhat badly about it (the fellow hasn't posted here since, I believe). I have been a bit more measured in my remarks, perhaps overly so.
I feel that I left something unsaid above of which your remarks have reminded me: the oft-reviled concept of...(ready?)...PERSONAL RESPONSIBILITY.
Web Cruiser, at some point you must accept that the actions YOU took were based on choices YOU made. You can point a finger of blame at your fetish, brain chemistry, or Death-Rays from Mars but ultimately that finger has to point at yourself. Every seemingly insignificant moment of your life, you are making decisions and choices - right down to which leg you put into your pants first this morning.
You seem to know the difference between right and wrong. If you truly wish to straighten out your life, your path is very clear, you must consistently (that means every time it comes up) choose to do the right thing, even when nobody is looking. Simple, not easy but it is what the rest of us do.
Finally, I look forward to the variety of things that come up here but Ben Del Amitri is right, this is, at best, tangentially related to feet. This, also, isn't the best place to start your "recovery". Surely, there must be an "On-line Confessional" somewhere.
Posted by Footman9 (Member # 1100) on :
Get the children out of your head, dude. Detox yourself and move to a higher ground of adult themes. And besides, we are primarily about pretty feet in these parts (with some rump roast on the side). Kids? That is DEFINITELY a NO GO. Believe you me, I would turn into the biggest HURRICANE you have ever seen if you got anywhere close to my child. TOTAL DESTRUCTION! So, get/keep help, change up, and keep a clean adult theme life going.
Posted by Tyler D. (Member # 11452) on :
internet porn addiction is real and it sux. i'm sure porn addiction affects many genres of sexual content.
the poster of this thread seems to have an addiction that goes beyond just feet so I would say he has bigger fish that need to be fried.
anyway, i know i have an internet feet porn addiction. i am thankful for my own sanity though to be able to know that I ain't into any child porn sh!t. That in itself is a topic and problem far different from foot porn addictions.
good luck with getting back ur sanity in those other areas. i am having a hard enough time with just my OCD love of feets ...so i can relate to a fraction of what you were saying about porn addiction
Posted by Amber Lynn Bach (Member # 31625) on :
hmmmmm. Well, im a female and I have to voice my two cents I suppose. Im an adult, and im proud to say I like pornography. In fact, I like sex! According to society there is something wrong with that. BS I say, if you dont have enough balls to admit what you like, then you are hiding something. Next, the topic of this guy writing this crap! Im an educated girl, and even though I do porn it deosn't make me a bad person. However, I will tell you this....I have never had an impulse for a child or even thought of it....It sickens me. I have some of my own, and not just mine, but all children are the most innocent creatures put on this earth. They need adults to look out for them, not stalk them. You have a serious issue going on besides porn my dear and I hope your girlfriend is aware. Sorry, but just had to say something!!!
Posted by cs (Member # 9338) on :
Some people get a rush from seeing sick shit. How many people here have seen "2 girls 1 cup"? Probably didn't get you off, but you watched it anyway because it was a fucking trainwreck and you couldn't turn away.
I'm sure if you trolled the internet for porn to the extent of the OP, you'd probably run across some things he did that you didn't want to see, and you'd probably sit there and watch it because it's a fucking trainwreck and you can't turn away. Dude looked at some pictures for christ sake. He's not trolling playgrounds with a hardon and a video camera.
How many people on here have posted sleepy feet stories or stories about stealing shoes to blow a load into? These people took risks because they got a rush and most of the events in those tales are crimes as well. Haven't seen many people get crucified like this guy for that stuff. Point being he's not the first person to do something unlawful for an adrenaline rush. If you want to look at it from my twisted world view, at least he wasn't engaging in actions that affected others.
It was brave of you to come out and post this. The fact that you recognized that you had a problem and are taking steps to resolve it clears you of wrongdoing in my mind. In a strange way, i understand. I'm an adrenaline junky and when i want a rush like that, I climb big rocks or do something equally crazy. I can't appreciate the choices you made, but i can appreciate going to legnths for that rush. I suggest you find yourself a hobby.
[ August 17, 2008, 03:54 AM: Message edited by: cs ]
Posted by Keyfeet (Member # 27313) on :
quote:Originally posted by stephm_ff: i think you are completely justified with your reactions but lets be real, i don't think anyone who comments here on Wu's ever has or ever will condone pedophilia or any sort of association with child porn.
Even though we post on here alot, essentially the forum is still anonymous so i think that's why not everyone is as outraged as you are, because it's not like one of their friends (who they've met and know their first name) has come out and admitted this type of behaviour. I think any kind of 'congratulations' being shown here is the kind saying 'well done for NOT going any further down that road', i don't think anyone's hailing the fact that this guy admitted he wanted to look at child porn. Can you really imagine someone coming on here and admitting that they love child porn or that they've done something with a child and people being 'understanding'? They'd get torn apart.
but dude, its child porn, who would honestly think of watching that? why would you? I dont care how addicted he was to it. hes an adult. and if he feels like he is so addicted to porn, he has to watch child porn? come on
Posted by Web Cruiser (Member # 1019) on :
Hey all
I know its not related to feet, but its an open forum, and i have seen others posting about relationship/life problems before and getting valid help.
If you look up OCD, the stereotypical obsessions are in fact, worrying about being a pedophile, and worrying about being gay, i have both of those worries. But, one thing i know about OCD is you worry about the issues that cause you the most worry, otherwise it wouldn't be a problem, you could just shrug it off. I have absolutely no inclination in seeking out a child, in anyway. The idea of pedophilia disgusts me as much as every one of you, that is why its a problem for me. An accident turned in to a rush, but it also made me feel very very sick.
I think CS has some extremey good points there, no just because they are backing me up and understanding, but because they are actually open minded and not instantly "your a pedo". If i was a pedophile i wouldn't post this sort of post on my favourite forum advertising that fact.
Thanks for all of the posts people (good and bad) its all valid, and at CS, i do have plenty of hobbies, music is my life and i play many instruments and am in fact a sound engineer too. I used to be on the PC every single day, that in itself isn't healthy, so I spend as much time away from it as possible now.
cheers all
Web
Posted by Sol (Member # 2476) on :
Wow, most of the replies here are massive overreactions that have failed to grasp Web Cruiser's message.
Web Cruiser never once claimed that it was the underaged people in the videos that turned him on, nor did he claim or imply that he had a desire to commit such acts on children. The rush he experienced is not attributed to the children themselves, it's the taboo nature surrounding it all. It's the fact that it's so forbidden and wrong that lead to the rush.
Here is a dictionary definition for the term paedophile:
"Paedophile noun, An adult who is sexually attracted to children"
Notice that sexual attraction is a predicate of the term. Nowhere in his posts did Web Cruiser mention that he was sexually drawn to children, nor was it even remotely implied. For example, he made it clear that he did not masturbate to the content. It is solely the extreme prohibited nature of the content, and the resulting shock/rush.
Let me clarify that I find child pornography unacceptable on every count, and I am creating no excuse for Web Cruiser, I am simply pointing out the error of labelling him a paedophile.
Posted by Toetapper (Member # 6473) on :
Ummm. I thought I said that...
I guess what I didn't say is that anyone who sees child-porn and doesn't report it, tacitly condones it and, thus, supports it.
Posted by J.J. (Member # 24686) on :
I wish you the best of luck Web. It took guts to say what you said, especially knowing that people are going to say horrible things to you and rip your words out of their context to slap you with.
Just stay on the road you've taken (the one seeking help I mean) and I'm sure you'll manage to change yourself in to what you want to be.
Like you already know, you're not a paedophile, nor gay, you're just a dude with OCD and some other kinds of neurotic symptoms looking to better himself.
Like I said, best of luck to you.
Posted by ozkar (Member # 13264) on :
He did a bad thing
then spent a lot of time and thought rationalizing it away and turning it into something else
and is now looking for some kind of redemption.
Posted by hous131 (Member # 29906) on :
At the very least if he feels he has a problem with pornography addiction involving children let him at least go to talk to a therapist. I feel he is crying for help and thats ok. He realizes the problem and wants to fix it.
Posted by bruce4c5nf3d6 (Member # 20195) on :
hi everyone, I like most of you, love female feet, to me there is not much that comes close to a woman resting her feet on my face, (except maybe cunnilingus), but anyway, I am 12 months away from graduating as a medical doctor, I have studied and worked in many different fields, including psychiatry.
I urge you to please "lay off" webcruiser, as he DOES indeed fit the description of a person suffering from sexual OCD, if you feel the need to understand webcruiser's position what you need to know is that the part of the brain responsible for planning and executing a task is disrupted, causing the brain to malfunction and try to convince the person that the task is NOT complete resulting in the person experiencing anxiety and subsequently trying to repeat the action.
random unrelated example: A person with OCD pours a glass of water, once full the person feels anxious "it wasnt filled right", they obsess over the need to fill the glass again whilst either "thinking the correct thoughts" whilst doing it, or "pouring it a certain way", the result being a person mundanely repeating actions. This seems harmless, but extend this principle to sex and porn and serious serious issues arise.
This does not apply in the same manner to all OCD sufferes, being multi-facted this disorder presents with obsessions and compulsions to many different aspects of life, one person may wash their hands compulsively, another may look up porn compulsively.
WHY THIS IS RELEVANT, is that webcruiser probably came across child porn by mistake, he looked, felt shocked, closed the program. Seems a normal response right? But no, he obssesses "did I find that arousing?" "oh no, I'm a terrible person" "but no wait I didnt find it arousing", he obsesses over the thought, and compulsively "checks" the matieral again as to confirm he is not aroused by it (which he isnt). There is that brain malfunction again. Now I honestly believe he is NOT a paedophile, people with OCD obsess over things THAT ARE THE OPPOSITE TO THEM.
I myself have suffered with OCD since I was 11 yrs old, I never got as bad as webcruiser, but because I have first hand experience of this disorder presenting in a different manner, I have been prompted to study it as it would give me alot of satisfaction to cure someone suffering from this disorder, it is serious debilitating and completely contrary to the person suffering it.
Sorry to bore you all with the scientific stuff, but this is truly a terrible disorder, the best cure being to teach the person to "see through" the obsession/compulsion loop, and correct the task planning/task execution malfunction.
The worst thing you can do to an OCD sufferer is tell them they they are what they obsess about, because believe me, THEY ARE NOT
well back to looking at the feet of beautiful girls!!
regards
the pre-doc
Posted by catsman (Member # 10269) on :
quote:Originally posted by footgirl0226: Ummm... Since I have OCD in extreme forms sometimes I say this with all sincerity...
Being curious to child porn and downloading it "a few times" makes you a sick fuck- not someone wih OCD.
There is my opinion. And I dont give a shit if I get in trouble for this comment!
And this comment goes to anyone else who is doing the same crap.
I concur 100% with you footgirl. NO instance of child pornography is satisfying or "a rush" to any NORMAL person, straight, gay, trans, or whatever the hell you want to call yourself or remove yourself from. To actively do it, and not be completely repulsed by it makes you a very sick person, and God be with you. Catsman
Posted by bruce4c5nf3d6 (Member # 20195) on :
I couldn't help but notice the rapidity of catsman's reply after I posted, but I have a response
the rush he speaks of is commonly referred to in psychiatry as an OCD "spike" it is ANXIETY that he is feeling not PLEASURE. The "checking" he did after the intial "rush" was his way of trying to confirm he was not aroused by it. True negative anxiety and arousal cannot co-exist.
footgirl0226 says she suffers from OCD, which she may very well do, but the disorder being multi-faceted presents in different ways with different obsession/compulsion conjugates.
I agree with the point that people that look at child porn ARE sick fucks, (excuse my being judgemental, but it's just my opinion), but a person with this form of OCD, does not enjoy child porn, so why are they a sick fuck? I would bet on the fact that "webcruiser" has the same opinions as every negative comment on this thread. Because he has this form of OCD he cant just "stop and forget" like all of you can, he thinks he needs concrete confirmation that he is not what he fears, AND BELIEVE ME people with this disorder are not what they obssess about. The cure to this disorder is to learn to see beyond anxiety and cessation of all compulsive activities.
I have studied mental disorders extensively please trust me on this point.
regards
the pre-doc
P.S anyone reading this, before you comment, please read my post above this one, right before "catsman's" post.
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...so i can relate to a fraction of what you were saying about porn addiction