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An ex-gf committed suicide earlier this week, and I just went to her visitation today. She was the first woman that indulged (rather than grudgingly tolerated) my love for feet... she helped me embrace my sexuality and accept myself in many ways. Like so many passionate flings it flashed out as quickly as it began, but I never stopped loving her or appreciating how she helped me develop. I haven't had intimate contact with her in 7 years, but the old post-coital protective feelings are fresh as ever. I can't stop thinking about making love to her and holding her tight, our naive plans of conquering the world together, the exhilaration of budding love that she will never feel again... it's agonizing in a way I have never before experienced... If she could have only seen how many mourners flocked to pay their respects, and how devastated her survivors are (her father was forced to bury his eldest daughter ON FATHER'S DAY!), I doubt she could have completed her terrible task. This wasn't intended as a pity-party post, I just had to get this off my chest. I BEG all of you to love your life, and stay in the game as long as you can; for those who love you if not yourself. Take care of each other out there, Archie MMB, you are dearly loved and deeply missed...
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I understand your feelings entirely. You, her friends and her family have my sincerest condolences. My ex wife, the mother of my children took her own life just 7 weeks ago. When I got the call, I didn't really know what to think or how to feel. Still, to this day, I'm not really sure. All I know is that someone I once loved deeply and shared many special moments with felt that they could no longer cope with this world. No matter the circumstances, or the reasons, it's is always heartbreakingly sad when a life is deliberately taken before it's time. Stay strong and remember the good times...it'll help.
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Sorry about that my man and keep those memories of the good times. Just don't let this episode stop you from going on...I'm sure she wouldn't want that.
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Man that post was tougher to read than I was first expecting when I opened this thread. My sincere condolences and I wish you the best in dealing with it all.
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I've never had anyone I know kill themselves (UK) but my great grandfather did after my grandfather died, but he was a bit of a nutter apparently. But I've had friends die of some pretty horrible things for such young people to get (asthma attack, cancer, heart attack)... Death is never easy. Posts: 230 | Registered: Jan 2009
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Deepest sympathy from me as well. Luckily nobody I have known intimately has ever commited suicide. Last summer a close female friend died of a brain tumor...that was also extremely tragic for all of us.
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Much sympathy from me too. We shouldnt know of the grief. I hope none of us here have to go through that !!
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i am so sorry for ArchAdmirer and you also LordLucan. Its hard losing someone that you once loved and even more so when its by their own hands. my thoughts are with you guys.
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Wow..that was alot sadder than I thought it would be before I opened it.I too have alot of sympathy for you and her many mourners. I've had maybe one friend commited suicide and many others die from other acts of foolishness on thier ends. I beat myself up for years wishing I could be there to talk them out of what they were doing but I had to realize that I just have to be my own man. Life rolls on but not a day goes by that I don't think about them and miss them dearly.
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